13 People, Places or Things I Miss

Hello Everyone.  Welcome to my new place.  Come on in.  The coffee is brewing.  Take a seat and relax.  It’s Thursday and I can’t think of a better way to start this new site off than with a Thursday 13 list.  I feel like I have used all the good list of my life and now all I’m left with are silly little lists about nothing of substance.  Hopefully this one will touch someone…..

13 People Places or Things that I miss

1.  My best friend Carrissa.  I haven’t talked to her in months.  She went back to her husband after being separated from him for several months and filing for divorce.  I was supportive to her during that time because he was abusive and mean and I wanted her and her children to have a better life.  I’m not sure if talking to me will cause friction in her marriage now or what.  I’ve thought about calling her many times but I haven’t.  If she wants to talk to me she will call.  Maybe that’s wrong or unChristian like of me,  but I can’t help nor can I hide the dissappointment I feel about her going back to him. 

 

2.  My Youth.  I miss being able to run up and down a basketball court for and hour and a half.  I miss having an innocence that comes without knowing all the evil that exist in the world.  I miss a time when I didn’t have to worry about how a I was going to make the house payment or buy groceries. 

 

3.  I miss my Daddy.  I long to hear his laughter fill a room.  I miss his ability to aggravate the snot out of me constantly for silly things.   I even wish I could be reprimanded by him for mistakes I make on a day to day basis.  I miss seeing him kiss and hug my child.  I want to see him meet my nephew who never knew him.   I wonder if he had not got cancer what would be different about our lives.   

 

4.  I miss having passion for my job.  I’ve said many times that I do not have a bad job.  I go to work 8-5 Monday through Friday.  I make a decent salary, not great, but decent.  For the most part I go home and I don’t think about work again until I get back there.  But is that really such a good thing? I don’t know.  I’d love to have a job that I actually care about.  One that I love even.  One where I have room for growth and a desire to do so. 

 

5.  I miss having a baby in my house.  I remember that feeling of contentment that comes with knowing that this little human depends on me to survive and thrive and grow.  I miss the smell of a just bathed baby.  The feel of their breathe on my face as I lay there just watching them sleep beside me.   I miss that undescribable joy that comes with watching them take their first steps or hearing them say “Mama” for the first time.  (All this being said, I do not miss dirty diapers!)

 

6.   I miss weighing 130 lbs.  I know this is a shallow one but it is true.  I even miss a time when I was able to suck my gut in.  My gut now has taken over.  The battle of the bulge is over and it has defeated me.  I surrended to it. 

 

7.  New episodes of Buffy The Vampire Slayer.  It’s true! This was my all time favorite hour long television show.  This is the only series that I have every single episode on DVD and have watched them all numerous times.  I wonder if Buffy would be with Angel or Spike.  If Zander and Anya would have gotten back together.  Is Willow still a witch? What a dork I am….

 

8.  Since we are on Television shows….. I miss my Friends.  I think it’s time for a reunion episode.  Just a little something to let us know what Ross, Rachel, Chandler, Monica, Joey and Phoebe have been up to for the last couple of years.  That show became such a part of my life.  It was sad to see it go.  The thing about friends is no matter how many times you see an episode it’s still funny every time.  I miss that. 

 

9.   I miss vacations..  What am I doing wrong? As a child I remember going on so many vacations with my family.  Granted I do have an extended family and sometimes I would go places with my dad’s family other times I would be with my family.  Disneyworld, The beach, The mountains, Atlanta, Miami etc.  It’s bad that I’m not giving my kids this joy in life.  I just don’t know what I am doing wrong….

 

10.   Hair bands… I’m talking Bon Jovi not like on Idol this week (Although that was enjoyable) but back in the “Shot thru the heart, slippery when wet, spandex, too much hairspray wearing days”.  Motley Crue, Cinderella, Dokken, Slaughter, Warrant, Poison, and Ratt…. Man those were the days!

 

11.  While we are in the 80’s mode… I miss feathered hair.  Mine always naturally feathered so that was my favorite hairstyle.  You know the flat on the top of head, parted down the middle and both sides feathered back so softly.  Think Heather Locklear in TJ Hooker. 

 

12.  This one is going to be unspoken… This one is in my heart and is very special to me but is one that I don’t exactly want to share with the world. 

 

13.  I miss road trips.  Or rather a time in my life when I had time for road trips.  I love jumping in the car and taking off without anywhere to go or a time to get there.  It’s a feeling of freedom that I miss most about that. 

 

There you have it.  What, where or whom do you miss?